So, what am I doing?
Sitting in front of my netbook, a day before my post time. Trying to create a post a day, even though I post three times a week. But I got nothing. Not a topic in mind.
Can I only create under pressure?
In a previous post, https://actionsoverthoughts.wordpress.com/2012/01/27/procrastination/, I wrote how I’m forcing myself to work with a deadline. I made that goal, no problem. But now that I try to get a jump on it I’m left writing about my empty mind.
So will this whole post be about how I can’t write unless I’m under pressure, or unless I’m complaining about not having pressure?
If I finish it my experiment is moot; I prove I can work without pressure and I have no more excuses to procrastinate. Unless all I can write about is complaints. The real test comes from doing it day after day. So there isn’t anything to contemplate; I do it or I don’t.
So I’m left wondering about limitations and barrier braking. How I can live with something for so long a habit develops, desired or not. Can a habit be easily broken just by confronting it?
Only if the habit was never confronted.
I have people I care about who are smokers. I don’t like it. They don’t like it. They want to quit, but have failed many times. I can’t give them a guaranteed method for quitting, even though I have some thoughts about how: not being a smoker means I have no authority, only an interest in health. Maybe I can help them confront the reasons why they started or why they keep doing it.
In my book I wrote
“What is not known cannot be studied or changed. Know yourself.”
I’m in the best time of my life. From the time I get up till the time I fall asleep I study and know myself. Every moment it filled with discovery.
So what am I doing? Learning.